"in my mind my dreams are real"

i had that moment a week ago listening to ziggy stardust obsessively like i’ve been doing recently, realizing like … imagine dropping that record when it was brand new, what a fucking insane experience that’d be, it still seems weird, crazy, out there today, but like in 1972? holy fucking god…

being a millennial idiot though the only thing that makes me think of though is how strikingly pointless lady gaga is, even though i love her, it’s just like… it makes me think she’s really kitsch, nothing but kitsch, no more real substance and it hurts…

lady gaga singing “born this way” has no real romantic resonance compared to ziggy stardust wailing “love you’re not alone” - but maybe the kitsch is the point , i guess it’s the point, but it also makes it feel less sincere, which she definitely isnt

i’m letting bowie off the hook here only because glam rock happened so quickly and was over, to revisit it in any way seems dumb unless to intentionally mock it - ie noel gallagher copping T-Rex changing it from “get it on” to “all i found was cigarettes and alcohol” - a banal reality, and a real irony

personal peace and affluence
personal peace and affluence
personal peace and affluence

Glimpses of true beauty, maybe not around me, but inside myself, driving down Sheridan Road with the sunroof open in the Volvo and the heater off, just feeling the cool air rush into the car .. Listening to Souvlaki … Yeah. I mean it feels really disgusting and bourgeois but I kinda don’t care because that’s who I am, I suppose.

i probably need to get onto that whole “having portfolios” thing, and the subsequent “submitting portfolios” thing, and the whole “here’s my website” thing, but at the same time like …. why?

merrimack ferry landing, merrimack, wisconsin, june 2012.

merrimack ferry landing, merrimack, wisconsin, june 2012.